November 15, 2009

Hello all,

I first want to say thank you to everyone reading this message and for visiting my site. At the risk of sounding dramatic - I really love you! I have learned so much as I seek God in what to say and how to pray for you.

As I was praying this morning all I could really pray was “Peace” over you. In the name of Jesus Christ I speak peace to your spirit today. Then I as I continued to pray I kept hearing “Trust God”.

Since I was a young girl I have had dreams and visions many of which have come true and it used to frightened me. I began to think I was weird or something. As a young girl I cannot say that I was particularly walking with God because although I went to church and church functions but I had no true understanding of who God was. I had given my life to the Lord at the age of 10, got baptized and went to the Baptist church 2 blocks away every Sunday mostly because my grandmother made me although she did not take me.

I dreamed regularly and would write and pray. Most of my talking to God at that time was in my writing. In my opinion, I had such a traumatic childhood and writing to God was a release for me. I really did not make up my mind to walk with Him until I was 26. Once I did, I learned about the Holy Spirit and finally began to get an inkling of what all the dreams and visions were about.

As I learned about the Holy Spirit, I learned that God wanted to use me a PraYer. I have literally had dreams and jumped up and just began to pray in the Spirit, not remembering the dream, not knowing the person or anything just startled with an urgency to pray in the Spirit. I have visions at any time of day and feel an urgency to pray in the Spirit. I have had dreams and visions of being in heaven, being across the world in unknown lands, and intensely praying for people I have never physically laid eyes on before.

I remember when I was growing up I would hear the adults say that God was a mysterious God. My grandmother used say “Baby you don’t always have to understand everything, in fact it is not for us to understand just yield to God’s Spirit and allow Him to use you as He will”. And that is my plan, even though sometimes things just don’t make sense to me.

God is s-o-o wonderful and His love for His children is beyond explainable! I am tearing up here because when I began to understand the depth of that Love was during a very rough patch in my own life. God loved me so much that for about a month several angels would come and hover around my bed at night and just sing all night while I slept. I cannot even put into words the Love I felt, like nothing here on this earth for sure. I would awaken and feel like I was wonder woman or something. It was magnificent! I could literally feel the presence of the angels during the day. I cannot explain it in another way than to say it felt so good to know that God really loved me and had my back. I felt at peace and knew that I could truly give all my problems to the Lord. I began to feel more confident. I began to feel more settled. I began to have joy and peace because I knew that God loved me and was working behind the scenes on my behalf. Around that time was when I also understood something else my grandmother would say which is “God kept me”.

I have learned over the years that God does different things with different people. I believe how much we yield ourselves to Him, determines how much He will do through us. Remember Jesus said in John 14:12, “I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father”. In order to have “Faith” we must “Trust” in the one whom our “Faith” is in.

That is really, what it means to allow Him to be Lord and Savior. We give up control and stop trying to understanding everything, trying to do things in our own strength, in our timing, in our way. We actually let God have His way in us and through us as Jesus did.

The key to whatever we do or do not do in this life for God is yielding to His Spirit. His Spirit is the One who knows the ins and outs of everything around us. His Spirit is the One who knows what is really going on with people, those who come into our little circle. If we want to make an impact in this world and be the Salt of the world we must totally yield. We must shake off our religious beliefs and some of the old wives tales that we have heard about God and really get to know Him. We must put our complete trust in Him just like we want our children to trust us to care for them and do what we say simply because we know things that they don’t or just like when you get ready to sit down in a chair that you have sat in a hundred times, you just sit.

I love you and will continue to pray God’s bless upon you,

Angeline